It came today!!!

I'm getting an iPod nano in pink for my birthday from my parents. SO EXCITED!!! I also turn 21!!! Woohoo...?

Life is good for the most part, I need to adjust my meds because something just isn't right and I hate feeling this way.

School starts soon, I can't wait because I'm tired of just sitting at home and going to work. The good thing is I hang out with AJ a lot so it's less boring.

I've been in a cleaning mood lately and I don't know why, at least everything looks nice. [:

I think this year is going to be a good one because it started off great.

I guess that's all.

Piano: A
English: A
Ecology: B
Speech-Public Speaking: A
Philosophy-Ethics: A
Human Sexuality: A

I know I should be pleased, but I'm really, really bothered by the B. I could have easily gotten an A, but instead I kept fucking around and thinking I could just make it up later. That's going to fuck up my GPA for the rest of college.

What the fuck. I feel like I cant tell one person something without the WHOLE ENTIRE REST OF THE WORLD being told too. And I kind of hate it. I don't appreciate being a spectacle for you. I don't want to say something to someone and be questioned about it by someone else. I don't want bets being made about me.

Do you see how this is shitty on my end?




Probably not.




WHATEVER. What. Ever.


I guess this just means I cant communicate with anyone on an intimate level? Unless its something I want everyone to know. :[ OR! Without prefacing everything with BUT JUST BETWEEN YOU AND I.. Which I know wont be respected anyways.




There isn't time to be angry though. And there isn't time for conflict and resolution.


Why? Because I'm moving to Las Vegas in like a week.


BYE FOR NOW.


P.S. Let the record show that this is my last entry that isn't friends only.

This is just too much for me to handle.

Really bad news about my eyes..






I don't want to talk about it though. No, I cant.


What other bad news can come?

I think I might be dying.




I hate this.









Of all the nonsense. It has to be this.